Posts Tagged ‘ambivalence’

while you were pursuing one wounded woman after another, consoling her, encouraging her, supporting her, being betrayed by her, saving her, financing her, loving her, making love to her, praying for her, demonizing her, scolding her, mothering her, fathering her, deityfying her, begging her, curing her, being manipulated by her, reading to her, crying for her, losing her, finding her, meditating for her, writing to her, suffering for her, being confused by her, losing your sanity over her,

i was here,


for you.

i did not require nor wanted to be saved.

you were ambivalent at best when i asked about us in a relationship.

i compromised.

your marital search is returning no results.

you won’t compromise.

who you want, you won’t find.

what you think you want has never been good for you.

if you truly wanted a synchronous unconditional mutual fulfilling spiritual poetic truthful authentic playful generous love, you might have given me: a chance.

not that half-hearted morning after the soul touching night that we made love.

here we are.

you continue your fruitless search.

i learn to live with and love another, while loving you.

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